i'm finally where i belong

in the post 'xckd part two,' the one 7th from the bottom is how i feel. minus the last panel. i just need to relax. i feel fine. i need to calm down. and you know what? i think it's working. im finally becoming normal again. well "normal" you know... im not.. but you know what i mean.

okay. so i am better. that's that. moving on.

for the remainder of the month i will be in sydney australia and i think aukland new zealand. somewhere in new zealand. i am attending world youth day. i actually typed an extremely good summery of what world youth day is but i think it was in an instant message and i don't think i can recover it. but if you really care that much and don't know what it is just look it up.

alrighty. just letting all you faithful viewers where i'll be the rest of the month so you don't worry yourselves silly. talk to you later.

the canopy

so i was just talking to scottie. she seemed pretty good. i hope that she really is. even though i know she really isn't. i wish that people weren't so scared all the time. so scared to say what they mean. i wish i could just talk about my life with my friends. and i can. but i have secrets now. i hate secrets. secrets suck. if you can ever avoid keeping secrets, especially from your friends and family, then please, avoid them at all costs. it'll save you a lot of grief.

so then i talked to bobby. im getting kinda worried. i think that im scared of commitment...
okay there. i said it. im scared. i so scared. i dont know what to do. i love him. i do. i want to be with him. more than i want most things in this world. but... im scared i'll miss things you know? i want to be loyal to him and love him and just be happy for as long as i can... which could probably be the rest of my life. but i dont know that for sure and i want to experience things and i've just been freaking out over this. i just dont know..

well i think that's all for now i guess. i'll check in again before i leave.