so i was just talking to scottie. she seemed pretty good. i hope that she really is. even though i know she really isn't. i wish that people weren't so scared all the time. so scared to say what they mean. i wish i could just talk about my life with my friends. and i can. but i have secrets now. i hate secrets. secrets suck. if you can ever avoid keeping secrets, especially from your friends and family, then please, avoid them at all costs. it'll save you a lot of grief.
so then i talked to bobby. im getting kinda worried. i think that im scared of commitment...
okay there. i said it. im scared. i so scared. i dont know what to do. i love him. i do. i want to be with him. more than i want most things in this world. but... im scared i'll miss things you know? i want to be loyal to him and love him and just be happy for as long as i can... which could probably be the rest of my life. but i dont know that for sure and i want to experience things and i've just been freaking out over this. i just dont know..
well i think that's all for now i guess. i'll check in again before i leave.
About Me
- jenehey
- I go to school and don't work as hard as I should. I want to be a full time mother some day, with a part time photography/artthings gig. My favorite color is light blue, but not like robin's egg blue, like a vintage blue. I always wear my high school class ring. I try to tell the truth all the time and I try to say what I mean, and not beat around the bush. I have a pikachu keychain for my dorm key, and right now, I'm procrastinating writing an essay that's already 8 days late. Catch you on the flip side.
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For the first time in a long time, I am pretty good. Don't worry about me. My drama is over and I'm happy. =] I actually lost another 1.5 lbs so that helps. heheh. Not a lot, but it's something.
But right now, don't worry about missing things. Nothing happens until after high school anyway and being with Bobby wont make you miss them. I mean, it's up to you to experience things and you can do most (if not all of them) whether you have a boyfriend or not.
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