the blues

Is this the new year or just another night

Is this the new fear or just another fright

Is this a new tear or just another desperation

Is this the finger or just another fist

Is this the kingdom or just a hit and miss

I miss direction most in all this desperation

Is this what they call freedom

Is this what you call pain

Is this what they call discontented fame

It'll be a day like this one when the world caves in

When the world caves in

When the world caves in

I'm singing this one like a broken piece of glass

For broken hearts and broken noses in the back

Is this the new year or just another desperation

You push until you're shoving

You bend until you break

Do you stand on the broken fields where your fathers lay

It'll be a day like this one when the world caves in

When the world caves in

When the world caves in

Is there nothing here worth saving Is 

No one here at all

Is there any net left that could break our fall

It'll be a day like this one when the sky falls down

And the hungry and poor and deserted are found

Are you discontented 

Have you been pushing hard

Have you been throwing down this broken house of cards

It'll be a day like this one when the world caves in

When the world caves in

When the world caves in

Is there nothing left now, nothing left to sing

Are there any left who haven't kissed the enemy

Is this the new year or just another desperation

Does justice never find you 

Do the wicked never lose

Is there any other song to sing besides these blues

And nothing is okay until the world caves in

Until the world caves in, until the world caves in...

so that's my new year's song. it is every year. it's kinda sad i guess. it makes you think.

i wanted to use a different video, but the only goodish one i could find had pictures from the holocaust and i didn't really want to post that. 

yeah. so in recent news i got my braces off. that's pretty exctiting i suppose. 

also in recent news my hair is getting long. i kinda like it. 

my retainer looks like a watermelon. yay.

also also in recent news, bobby and i are doing really well. i dont really talk about him much but im really happy so i thought it would be kinda news worthy. im much more stable now and i think that is definatly a contribute to my happiness with bobby. so yay!

(...is contribute a word and if so did i use it correctly? not as in con-TRI-bute, but like, CON-tri-bute. i dont know...)

also also also in recent news, i don't believe in new years... even thought the blues is my new years song. the night of December the 31st is pointless. all it is is the passing of time. nothing special. time is always passing. nothing changes when the new year starts. nobody keeps resolutions. i like to mark years at times like cornerstone and lake george when i can remember what i was doing there last year. i guess i do that because i love being at cornerstone and lake george. 

so that was what i had to say. THE END.

i love you guys. i just want you to know that.