Monday, January 19, 2009

she said "yes"

I hate engagement stories. 

Whenever I read them or see them on TV, the only thing I can think about are the chances that in a couple of years, those people will divorce. They will hate each other and fight over the 2 or 3 kids that they managed to squeeze out together. I feel so hopeless for this generation of greed and stupidity. 

It also makes me feel uneasy about my future. I've always been afraid that the man I will marry will be wrong for me. I'm afraid that I won't have optimal happiness in my relationship. How selfish is that? I'm scared that I'll miss the guy that was really meant for me. I think that there are plenty of people that are potentially compatable enough for a lifelong commitment, but only one that is really meant for you. Like made for each other specifically. I don't know. It kinda sounds rediculous when I say it. I guess I'm just scared that I'll settle for somebody when I could have/missed the perfect one. 

I mean, I'm not worried about finding somebody right now, just worried for later. You know. 

I eat too much sugar. 

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